What makes it so damn hard to tell someone, “I like you. I would like to have more conversations with you. I want to spend time with you. After so many years of not being with anyone, I want you to be the one to make love to me.” I would think, when you get to a certain age, saying what you want would be easy. But when it comes to the affairs or imaginary affairs of the heart, there are no rules. It doesn’t become more comfortable. Actually, it becomes harder.
I guess, for me, it’s fear. Too many concerns. But, the main worry for me would be rejection. But, doesn’t everyone have that fear? The fear of releasing your words to a person you have come to love (they don’t know it though) and they REJECT you. Of course, you, me will get over it. Eventually. But, it’s that one time fear you still have to hurdle. For many of us, we need to hear the rejection so that we can move on. Proceed to the next rejection or learn from the rejection and move on to a solid love. However, the hard words must still come out to get the rejection or acceptance.
Whatever the case may be, I need to release (in more ways than just one), and eventually, I will need to say the words so that I can move on to a healthy life. A life filled with non-rejection, more talks, more love, and much-needed sex. That latter is a whole blog for me itself. Stay tuned.